I'm beginning to think I am a bipolar parent. I am a decent mother on my days off. I have patience, a desire to get out there and do things together, and I let loose a bit from being on a schedule. On the days I work and especially the evenings that J is not home, I am a bear. I feel a pressure to get things done, yet not want to do them. I have little to no patience. I feel it is a tug of war over time. I have been noticing Miss Peant Butter's and my dynamic changes over these days. My days off she is fairly happy go lucky, wants me, but isn't needy and is generally pretty well behaved. On the days I work, she is needy, naughty, and full of tantrums. It tests my very being, which is where I lose all patience. It is as if we feed off of each other's misery. I guess noticing it is the first step in finding a way to work out something different. I have even been kicking around going to third shift, but I think my marriage would suffer then. I get that there are pros and cons of being a working mom, but I would hope turning into a toxic mom most of the week isn't one of them. Even SAH moms have to have a give and take I would think. How do you find a balance?