My blogger friend Nicole wrote a post called "It's Just Bread" and happened to repost it again. It is about taking on something that you have always wanted to do but were too scared, too busy, too whatever to do it. She mentions me in it. I started running about a year and a half ago and said I don't think I will ever feel like I'm a runner if I don't to a 5K or something. So I did a 5K last November. I am planning to do another on this coming Saturday. I won't be the fastest, I will chug along and finish, hopefully in less that 36 minutes. When she reposted the Bread post today, I had an "aha" moment as Oprah would say. It spoke to me on another level and while it is great to venture out and do something you have always wanted to do, but made excuses not to, it is also good advice for someone going through a situation they didn't for see coming . That is what it did for me.
Since it is a matter of public record now, I am getting divorced. I didn't really see it coming and the circumstances under which it went down per se, wasn't the best. I am scared of what is happening, I am nervous, I am mad, I am sad, I am a full range of emotions and depending on the day, I'm not always sure how I am feeling. I have days where I don't know how I am going to do this, but it is just bread. I will get through this. I have already found a place to move into. I only wish I didn't have to wait until June 1st. I started packing. I started thinking about what is in store for me. I am preparing to spend days without my Peanut Butter. I am preparing to deal with other things that are surrounding this situation, as much as they hurt me and anger me, I have to deal with them. I have started to lean on some of my friends for support, something I may not have done before. I will be ok, I will get through this. It may just take some time, but it is just bread.