Today I am hurting. I feel worthless. I so wanted to go out and see some friends tonight, but feared I would be a blubbering idiot and chose to stay home and have PB ask me why I am so sad. I am a whirlwind of emotions and wonder what I did to deserve this. I know life isn't fair, but man, I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. I feel trapped and don't know what to do. I fear going into work tomorrow, but don't know how many more days I can take off because of this. Maybe I need a day to go and be free for a while. I went from feeling fairly good on Friday to being crushed again today. I don't know what affect this is having on PB, but I am becoming more irritable with her and find myself with a shorter than normal temper. I never thought this would be so hard.