Today I came to the realization that I may just need to go back to taking something. I took wellbutrin initially to quit smoking, but I actually felt much better taking it. I went off it for a while when I became pregnant and was put back on it when my NP decided my bawling over my job during my visit was enough. After a few months I went off of it again. I didn't really have a bout with post partum and I was feeling well. Today it hit me as I am into my pink week of pill and am a raging biotch that this is the only feeling I have been feeling lately. I almost feel like a robot going through the motions of the day, keeping a schedule and the monotony going. J and I had a huge argument over this a few weeks ago and as much as I think I am trying, I am failing. I really hate to say I need something to make me "happy," but at this point I don't know if I am making things worse by not. I normally do not like to take anything unless I absolutely have to. I have had a headache for a week now and still have yet to take anything for it. I work on a unit at work where a good percentage of the fellas take a myriad of medications to as my coworker puts it to have "better living through modern chemistry." Right now this doesn't sound so bad, I just want to not be a zombie for a little while.