Getting Through it All

Today I am hurting. I feel worthless. I so wanted to go out and see some friends tonight, but feared I would be a blubbering idiot and chose to stay home and have PB ask me why I am so sad. I am a whirlwind of emotions and wonder what I did to deserve this. I know life isn't fair, but man, I wouldn't wish this upon anyone. I feel trapped and don't know what to do. I fear going into work tomorrow, but don't know how many more days I can take off because of this. Maybe I need a day to go and be free for a while. I went from feeling fairly good on Friday to being crushed again today. I don't know what affect this is having on PB, but I am becoming more irritable with her and find myself with a shorter than normal temper. I never thought this would be so hard.

Happy Sunday

I wish I had 10 things to be happy about this week. I could make quite a list of what is making unhappy this week. My world has been turned upside down and I have a pretty rough road ahead. I never planned to be making the decisions I will be making and I am hoping that what is happening now will not leave lasting marks. I hope I can weather the storm and come out the other side. I know I go periods of time without posting and this may be one of them, even though it is a time when I have so much to say, I am afraid I have to take it to another forum.
I am happy that I have a beautiful little girl who has no idea how much her being my snuggle bunny is going to help me. I am happy I have a Mom who is always there for me. I am happy I have a stepson who loves his sister to no end.

Happy Saturday

My top ten thing to be happy about this week are:

10. The power mongers had to be told 3 times that their was a restraining order on the bill becoming law and finally got it through their heads that maybe they should stop trying to push their limits.

9. After lagging in my running I pushed myself a little on Weds and got a nice 4 miler in. 

8. Aldi's had strawberries for 49 cents a package today. They are pretty ripe, but I will freeze them for smoothies.

7. Things are making much more sense on Fringe now that I caught up on the season 2 that I missed.

6. My yard is snow free!

5. Woot, I won the NCAA Bracket Challenge. Yes, I know the Championship hasn't been played, but no one had any teams left in the pool. See those first rounds do make a difference. Oh, and another thing,  I am 2 time champ!

4. I got my brakes done on my car for half of what it would've cost me at the shop and found some pretty scrapbook paper while I was waiting for my car to get done.

3. Who ever does this facebook profile gives me a daily smile, sarcasm at its finest. If you like Scott Walker don't click.

2. I decided I'm going to spend a weekend in May here.  I gave up my Y membership so I should have money to cover it. My Mother's Day present to myself. Some other ladies from work are going.

1. Peanut Butter had her 4K spring show this week and it was a hoot. She is one good dancer.